Writings and Thoughts

Hey girl just come here and bring  Your love for me and hear me sing  Our story that has come to an end. I'm here sitting inside my den.  I didn't know it will come to this; Our love which was so bright and bliss Will break like it did never exist.  Will crush every part of me.  I wish you could just understand  My love for you was so grand.  That I was just so mad in love  And I didn't want to hear you sob. But you wanted me to cry.  You wished to make me rely On you and every part of you.  But I still was in love with you.  And a day did come when you hurt My heart and blood that flowed inside.  I learnt that your love was fake. To fall for you was a mistake.  And then, I shattered into countless Pieces that never fell to the ground. It remained in the air, hurting Me from all edges, every way.

If I could just hold your hand, If I could just kiss your head, That would be enough To live my life. If I could just see your eyes, If I could just see you smile, That would be enough To be alive. Hey baby just look at me. I love you as much as I can give. 'Cause when you're beside I feel so alive. If I could just look at you, Just you and me in the blue. That would be enough To go and dive. If I could just give you bribe, To be with me and spend your life. That would be enough To pass my time. Hey baby just look at me. I love you as much as I can give. 'Cause when you're beside I feel so alive. Just you by my side, To make me alive. Just you're my life. Baby come take my hand

I see the dazzling white mountain With dark black patches all over it. I see the clouds moving And the sun shining above it. I'm sitting on a deserted hill. It is full of greenery sans any human, but me. The rejuvenating wind hits softly on my left cheek. The pen is in between my fingers and the bag on my knee. The nature is so blissful, as charming as it can be. The small shrubs around me are pure. The leaves of the trees are moving slowly. The holiness of the nature, I can see for sure. The forest covers most of the hills, Spreading it's greenery all around. I can see a thick fog in the distance. The broken branches and petals are all on the ground. The path on which I am about to travel Is full of dust and consists of abundant sand. I can see a small bushy cottage. This (nature) is where I belong, my dreamland.

I sat on fading green grass. Which were part of the ground.  I looked up and saw an aeroplane.  It wase so gigantic, taking a huge round. I picked up a small piece of wood And thought: why the world is so blind?  Then the sun came out of the dark clouds. And i looked at it, it brightly shined. My eyes caught a bird passing by. It moved freely, as if It were the actual inhabitant of the real world.  Then my eyes glanced at a dead animal, I went stiff.  I walked towards it, my eyes fixed; Avoiding the greenery around.  The stillness of the dead being scared me. Someday, I thought,  I'll be on the same ground. A severe  chill passed down my every part. And I started shaking, I felt dizzy.  My body budged, my head spun And I fell on the ground losing my rigidity. 

The day you will be mine. The moon will rise, and it will shine. My thoughts will change and so will my life. I want nothing else, you will be suffice. The wind will become tender. I'll be out of every danger. For me, everything will be clear.  For me, you will be very near. The whole day i think about you. Hoping you will appear, suddenly, out of the blue. The memory of your face enlightens everything i see. The day you will stand in front, I will bend my knee.  The beauty of nature is very similar to your's.  To make you a part of me, my every cell roars. I'll be at ease, even if you be far away. Seeing you coming towards me, my body will sway.  When you'll come to me, I will bend down. I will open my mouth, will see your gown. I will ask you to marry me and then will wait. Nervous at the situation, my body will sweat. You'll give an assuring smile. Because you love me too, and everything else is futile. Then...

I have changed. I have transfigured, actually, but in a bad way. I may seem gentle to people at present, but I was far more kind and polite in the past. Change is inevitable, I know that. But the change which I find in myself is weird.     I was a silent boy who was far away from any form of nuisance. I was the first one to lend a helping hand. I used to talk less, talk sense. Now I speak unnecessarily. Now, I have become selfish. I think before helping anyone, a thing which lacked in me before.     This change is an imperil for me. It is destroying me from inside. I want to change again, be like what I was a few years back, but I'm bewildered whether I will be able to regain my tenderness, my sweetness.     People think I am a very good person. If they really mean that, then of this I am sure: I was the best of me in the past and I want to relieve like that now. I miss those days when everyone around me seemed to be nice, everything seemed to be fine. ...

She is my love and my life.  She is my friend and my wife.  She is my liqueur; she is my wine.  She is extremely beautiful and she is divine.  She is in my thoughts; in my mind.  Her appearance disturbs me; turns me blind.  Her movement is flawless, like that of God.  When she is around, even my hesitation turns into a nod.  When she is by me, everything gets dark.  I find myself in a place like the ark.  Her hand is like a magical wand.  It seems as if, it is the reason for me to stand.  When my eyes meet her's, i start dreaming.  'I need you till eternity', I hear my heart screaming.  I can't even move a bit, she has casted a spell.  'I need you very badly', I want to tell.  She blinks her eyes, and it all gets over.  I want it to happen again, over and over.  And then she goes away, so perfectly.  I see her legs -they are crafted so amazingly.  I turn to leave...

She is weird but she is good. She has a story and it is under her hood. She is serious, but she is a real fun. If I will lie to her, she will shoot me with a gun. Her story is peculiar, but I still don't know. Even if she tells me, I won't feel low. Truth is what connects us, there is no sign of fake. Her thoughts are superior to mine:like a stream and a lake. She thinks I will never look at her the same way. But a weird story will not change the day. Her past may be ridiculous; but I still don't care. Be it very embarrassing , but she has to share. Past cannot change the way I look. Her mouth is much like a secret book. I look forward for that day to hit. Talking to her after that day - I will not hesitate even a bit.

Everything around me was dark, And the sky held high. Somewhere nearby I heard a dog bark, Holding back tears I said, ‘goodbye’. I became completely isolated when you went away. Your memories haunted me now and then. The night passed miserably, and so did the day. The only place I felt like staying, was my den. The time seemed to slither slowly, Whenever your face struk my mind. Everyone around me was jolly; But I was really so blind. Eventually, a day arrived when I completely moved on. That day I felt the actual sunlight. All the retentivity was gone; That day ended so quickly, and so did the night.

She sat by me, Her nervousness I could see. I pulled her near, My heart could no more bear. I caught her head, Many lovely words my heart said. I intensely looked in her eyes. They were deeply beautiful, promising no lies. Suddenly she put her lips into mine, The feeling was ironic and divine. I looked up into the sky and saw rain, And then she said me softly, 'lets fall in love again.'

The most beautiful girl is thee, Let the whole world see. You have always mesmerized me. And for that, you are always worthy. Today is your day, for you were born. The world will be your's, someone had sworn. You are like a bird, you can forever fly. In the dearest part of my heart; you will always lie. May I wish, today be the best hour of your life. You cut your cake, with the birthday knife. I will remember you always, my feelings say. With your essence in my heart, a very happy birthday.

I hate the way you love me. May you be the first one to see me; May you be the only one to woo me; Though you be whatever in front of me; I hate the way you love me. You can get anything out of me; You can imitate anything of me. Despite the fact that you can resist anything for me; I hate the way you love me. Don’t try to buzz like a bee; Believe in the things which you really see. If you love, then yell it out to me. I hate the way you love me. People may become fool, don’t try that on me. You could convince others, but I am not someone so easy. When you act, try to get the best of me. I hate the way you love me Don’t try to act as if you have become fizzy; Please don’t say that you are feeling dizzy; Though you’ll always be the best person for me; but I hate the way you love me.

You But No One! There are lots of feelings scrolling in my heart; But they choke to come into vision. The mind is confused by the sight of your charming face. ‘To let you come in or just walk away,’ is all what it thinks the whole day. The sun seems to rise fast, Because even sun knows that all I want to see is only you; as fast as I can. The day ends so quickly, As tomorrow is mine; like always. My heart is stupid and delicate too. It can’t bear pain as it already is loaded with hell lot of it. My eyes just want to view one thing; and that is you. IS this an illusion or reality, dear, I really don’t know what’s going on. The world seems fair to me as I have someone to sacrifice myself for. Let everything in front of me get destroyed; But I will be haunted, just to get a glance of you.

I don't love you but I don't want to lose you I don’t love you but I don’t want to lose you. It was my fate who made me choose you. Life is so strange, it really confuses us; It entangles people, and so it has done to us. It seems sometimes that we are made for each other; But the reality is that love is something I can’t bother. I get amazed to feel your presence. Rather than you, no one can judge my essence. I don’t love you but there is something in me which wakes me up every time I think about you. When I see you coming by, I feel that at least there is someone whom I can heartedly trust for my rescue. It is only you who makes me feel so true; The one who is dear to me the most, is just you. I don’t fear when I am in the dark; Because, for me, you are like a spark. The very sight of yours makes me so joyful. Even in a doomed anger, your voice makes me cool. Our relationship is more divine than that of love; Because the bond that we share is peaceful like dove. Though I c...

HEART My eyes and my heart, Captured you in there heart, When my eyes caught you, In the very first sight of yours. And now- at present; I see you and I see you, But rarely talk to you, I love you and really love you, But I can’t express it to you. I am satisfied with your image; And I want nothing else. You are the warmth of sun in the morning; Twinkling stars in the dusk; You are my angel at night. You are Pretty. You are Rosy. You are Amazing. You are Charming. You are Helpful. You are Intelligent. Your Prettiness has attracted me. Your Rosiness has distracted me. I am Amazed to see you. Your Charmness in unexpressable. Your Help is the only thing I need. Your Intelligence is above everything.

BEAUTIFUL You are the most beautiful girl whom I ever saw in my life; For you, I can do any sacrifice. I see your face before the rising sun; For you, I can bear the bullets of any gun. When I see you, even god feels shy; I wonder to take you high up in the sky. Just you and me up of the world; Enjoying and having fun in the presence of the Lord. For you nothing is grain, wheat or rice; Girl, you are my heart, love and my life.

NOTHING  BUT  YOU! You deep in the heart of me Nothing but you! See through the art of me; Deep in the heart of me Find the best part of me, Changeless and true Deep in the heart of me Nothing but you!

                                                     AN ECCENTRIC LOVE Let's our relation get synchronized. You left me that very day helpless; And I still tried to get my love defined. But to my worse, it proved pointless. I loved you with my soul and heart; And with the ebulient confidence which I possessed. But you crassed my each and every counterpart; Striking all the beautiful feelings which I had down poured. Let me recall the past when we used to walk together; To long distances which were adventurous. We sat together, ate together, played together; Making our love more and more porous. I almost left every possession for you; And expressed only the humourous part of mine. I executed your order readily without leaving a due; And all these things made me feel that my love was divine. I remember those mes...

I myself was taken aback hearing the news! I neither could believe it nor could react at that moment. It seemed as if I was in a state of trauma for few seconds. ‘Really???!!!’, was all I could write after I got the news. This happened a month ago and I was not even informed. It was not fair, really. However I want to say her that disaster happens and it can’t be overcomed.  Disappearence occurs and it can’t be undone. The life changes, forever, but she still had to survive. I want to tell her that she has to live, she has to leave for the precious memories of him. Though she will starve for his presence but she has to dwell, here in this “Cruel” world. She has to live for him, for his disappearence; for the impossible disaster. I wish I could tell these all things to her directly, face to face. But to my dismay, I don’t have the chance to meet her and I don’t even have the guts to break the matter to her in texts. I want her to share this disaster of her’s with me. I want to...