Writings and Thoughts

Hey girl just come here and bring  Your love for me and hear me sing  Our story that has come to an end. I'm here sitting inside my den.  I didn't know it will come to this; Our love which was so bright and bliss Will break like it did never exist.  Will crush every part of me.  I wish you could just understand  My love for you was so grand.  That I was just so mad in love  And I didn't want to hear you sob. But you wanted me to cry.  You wished to make me rely On you and every part of you.  But I still was in love with you.  And a day did come when you hurt My heart and blood that flowed inside.  I learnt that your love was fake. To fall for you was a mistake.  And then, I shattered into countless Pieces that never fell to the ground. It remained in the air, hurting Me from all edges, every way.

If I could just hold your hand, If I could just kiss your head, That would be enough To live my life. If I could just see your eyes, If I could just see you smile, That would be enough To be alive. Hey baby just look at me. I love you as much as I can give. 'Cause when you're beside I feel so alive. If I could just look at you, Just you and me in the blue. That would be enough To go and dive. If I could just give you bribe, To be with me and spend your life. That would be enough To pass my time. Hey baby just look at me. I love you as much as I can give. 'Cause when you're beside I feel so alive. Just you by my side, To make me alive. Just you're my life. Baby come take my hand

I see the dazzling white mountain With dark black patches all over it. I see the clouds moving And the sun shining above it. I'm sitting on a deserted hill. It is full of greenery sans any human, but me. The rejuvenating wind hits softly on my left cheek. The pen is in between my fingers and the bag on my knee. The nature is so blissful, as charming as it can be. The small shrubs around me are pure. The leaves of the trees are moving slowly. The holiness of the nature, I can see for sure. The forest covers most of the hills, Spreading it's greenery all around. I can see a thick fog in the distance. The broken branches and petals are all on the ground. The path on which I am about to travel Is full of dust and consists of abundant sand. I can see a small bushy cottage. This (nature) is where I belong, my dreamland.

I sat on fading green grass. Which were part of the ground.  I looked up and saw an aeroplane.  It wase so gigantic, taking a huge round. I picked up a small piece of wood And thought: why the world is so blind?  Then the sun came out of the dark clouds. And i looked at it, it brightly shined. My eyes caught a bird passing by. It moved freely, as if It were the actual inhabitant of the real world.  Then my eyes glanced at a dead animal, I went stiff.  I walked towards it, my eyes fixed; Avoiding the greenery around.  The stillness of the dead being scared me. Someday, I thought,  I'll be on the same ground. A severe  chill passed down my every part. And I started shaking, I felt dizzy.  My body budged, my head spun And I fell on the ground losing my rigidity. 

The day you will be mine. The moon will rise, and it will shine. My thoughts will change and so will my life. I want nothing else, you will be suffice. The wind will become tender. I'll be out of every danger. For me, everything will be clear.  For me, you will be very near. The whole day i think about you. Hoping you will appear, suddenly, out of the blue. The memory of your face enlightens everything i see. The day you will stand in front, I will bend my knee.  The beauty of nature is very similar to your's.  To make you a part of me, my every cell roars. I'll be at ease, even if you be far away. Seeing you coming towards me, my body will sway.  When you'll come to me, I will bend down. I will open my mouth, will see your gown. I will ask you to marry me and then will wait. Nervous at the situation, my body will sweat. You'll give an assuring smile. Because you love me too, and everything else is futile. Then...

I have changed. I have transfigured, actually, but in a bad way. I may seem gentle to people at present, but I was far more kind and polite in the past. Change is inevitable, I know that. But the change which I find in myself is weird.     I was a silent boy who was far away from any form of nuisance. I was the first one to lend a helping hand. I used to talk less, talk sense. Now I speak unnecessarily. Now, I have become selfish. I think before helping anyone, a thing which lacked in me before.     This change is an imperil for me. It is destroying me from inside. I want to change again, be like what I was a few years back, but I'm bewildered whether I will be able to regain my tenderness, my sweetness.     People think I am a very good person. If they really mean that, then of this I am sure: I was the best of me in the past and I want to relieve like that now. I miss those days when everyone around me seemed to be nice, everything seemed to be fine. ...

She is my love and my life.  She is my friend and my wife.  She is my liqueur; she is my wine.  She is extremely beautiful and she is divine.  She is in my thoughts; in my mind.  Her appearance disturbs me; turns me blind.  Her movement is flawless, like that of God.  When she is around, even my hesitation turns into a nod.  When she is by me, everything gets dark.  I find myself in a place like the ark.  Her hand is like a magical wand.  It seems as if, it is the reason for me to stand.  When my eyes meet her's, i start dreaming.  'I need you till eternity', I hear my heart screaming.  I can't even move a bit, she has casted a spell.  'I need you very badly', I want to tell.  She blinks her eyes, and it all gets over.  I want it to happen again, over and over.  And then she goes away, so perfectly.  I see her legs -they are crafted so amazingly.  I turn to leave...