Writings and Thoughts

Here I am, walking on a deserted boulevard. My mind is trying hard to eradicate something. Something that has happened again, it’s absurd. I look around; there are empty houses, empty road, lifeless objects. I’m pressing my skull tightly, the thing is spreading all over. Ah! Please get out of my mind, I cannot hold you. The trees are still but the leaves are swaying. I’m getting unconscious, I’m losing my rigidity. ‘Hey, what happened? You look weak.’, says she. How come she is here? How did she find me? ‘I’m all right, please go away.’ I say. I want her to vanish, in a blitz. She is confused, her face shows it. Why does not she leave me alone? But I cannot move my eyes off her clawless face. She is so innocent, and I’m treating her like a bad spirit. I want her to stop staring at me. I don’t want her care, her love. ‘Cause I fear that I will break again; This time in so many pieces that can never...

I sit under a green tree and think, She must be somewhere similar, sitting down. I am missing her and her company badly. The path below me is a peril, I cannot go down. I wish I was with her, talking; Knowing every secret and the stories she hides. But destiny does not want this. I am okay with its decision, but still I miss her eyes. The sun is shining brightly, and the heat is hurting my legs. I wonder if she feels the same pain. The trees with brown fractured barks are standing erect. I think her memory inside me is never going to drain. Whenever I close my eyes, I see her smiling face. I feel so good, but knowing that she can never be mine, I open my eyes. I feel so lonely like a desert. Now I look at the clouds, and imagine her goodbyes. My mind is scribbling her name, her everything. I want it to stop but it’s beyond my control. For now my heart is controlling my mind. My heart wants her heart, that’s its only goal. I tell my he...

The words will be mine, The sense will be mine too. Filling in the deserted, I will give meaning to everything in you. The day wll be yours, The warmth will be yours too. Eradicating the distance between us, In my arms, there will only be you. The verse will be mine, The rhythm will be mine too. Creating a heaven between us, The blushing will be you. The touch will be yours, The impact will be yours too. Getting splendid in my presence, The person in front will only be you. The night will be mine, The romance will be mine too. Making love with my eternal love, The person in my soul will just be you.

I am on my bed and I hear a sound. It has come from far, maybe from the ground. I sit up- scared- thinking what to do. It is cold, but I climb down and put on my shoe. I open the door and climb down the stairs. I hear the windows rattle, it scares all my layers. My moment stops, my heart beats rapidly. Though I am a coward, I want to know the reality. I hear the sound again. I have decided to find the source. My body is sweating; sweat oozing out from all my pores. Everything is quiet again. Now it's just my feet banging the wooden floor. Something catch my ears! Oh! It's just a dog's snore. Now I am out of my home, and it's very cold. The full moon is shining brightly and the stars are bold. Ah! I hear it again, it has come from miles away. The hills have eyes! They are staring in my way. I look at the hills carefully and I see huge bulgy eyes. Suddenly there is a noise; it's a hyena's cries. I am stiff, I need ai...

I am a bird. So what? Don't I have the right to be free? I see my co-mates, who are like me, flying under the deep blue sky which is so mesmerising. I feel so charmed but when that spell breaks, I get disillusioned thinking that I can never gain that place, that sheer freedom. I want to fly!     Was I born in a cage? If not then why am I in this unpleasant state? Why am I stuck here inside these thin metal bars? Don't my soul have an essence? I can breathe freely but still it feels like I am suffocating, I am starving. Why is it so?     There are humans moving all around here and there but they just don't care. I have heard that they are the most superior animals in the world. They have many capabilities that we don't possess. If that is true, then why do they ignore me? They just look at me and go away. They only see the beauty that lies on my outer part. They never try to penetrate in and look at my soul. They never look deep in my eyes. They never look at my so...

Me: Hey! My Heart: Wait up there dude! I can’t hear you. Can’t you see I’m doing my errand.    Damn, you have so much blood in you. Me: I just said “Hey”. Dork! Can’t you slow down for a minute? Okay wait I’ll lie down. You’ll have to pump less. Actually I need to talk to you. My Heart: I can’t hear you properly. What did you just say? Could you repeat it? Me: (Loudly) I said I wanted to talk to you. It’s urgent. Damn! Stop beating for sometime. My Heart: You’ll die if I stop beating. Me: Don’t eat up my head. Just slow down your motion. I’m lying now. I’ll manage to remain conscious. I really need to talk! [My heart beats slowly now. Almost 33 beats per minute] My Heart: Are you okay? Me: Yeah! Now listen to me. Something has happened to me. Something weird. Did you hear that? [I try to budge my ear in the direction of the source of the sound] My Heart: Are you insane? Don’t you know I don’t have ears? I can just hear your ...